I am here, I’m alive.  I don’t know what else to say.  I’m overwhelmed and saddened by many things in life right now.  It makes me want to hide out and not show my face.  I try to force myself to get out the last few weeks, and I’m doing OK at it.  But too often lately things don’t work out like I plan and I have to fight with that little voice that says “See, told ya, should have just stayed at home.”

It’s not for lack of good things in life too.  RM turned 3 and she is as delightful as ever.  I have a car of my own and a little bit of freedom - of course I can’t afford to license it or put gas in it, but it is a step in the right direction.  The sweater is finished, and just lovely.  We are surviving….

I just can’t talk about the things that are making me sad right now though.